"No one has enough money to follow his vision and also pay all his bills." - Marcus Burns in Good Faith
Marcus Burns is a Jane Smiley character who leads the other characters on a merry chase by promising them Big Things. And then he swindles them. A few months ago I met someone who made me think of Marcus Burns.
I am getting to the point where I suspect it's not just his boundless energy and flood of big ideas that reminds me of Burns. And I'm not sure what to do about it. Obviously, I need to back off on what I'm willing to offer. But most importantly, I need to stop internalizing the turmoil.
Years ago I was overextended in all directions and had no idea how to make it right. It was a long time ago and I've done my best to not be in that situation ever again. This is stirring the muck and I find myself physically responding and feeling like I used to feel; tense, anxious and slightly queasy. It's like having a waitressing nightmare years after you've stopped waitressing. I am spending way too much mental energy sorting out a problem that is not mine.
Our country has made a pig's breakfast of things by living that quote above. If our vision can only be accomplished by deceiving others, something's amiss.